A few more hours before my enlistment.
A few more hours too last use the internet.
A few more hours before my last cigarette.

Spent my day by cleaning my room and cooking for the family.
Nothing much to do anymore since there's no longer anyone to talk too.
Loads of things filling up in my mind,
Loads of questions to be ask.
Wish it be easier,
Wish it was over.

Things are not the same surely.
Fake smiles where ever i go.
Sense of humour lost dearly.
Lack of confidence surrounds me completely.
Never thought it be rather hard.
Im sorry to all my mates whom i had offended.
Sorry for not being able to show the affection to you guys like before.
Sorry for being an ass and force you guys to drink with me just because i need it.
Selfish ,i know.

Still wished it was easier,
Still wished the day before was what i expected.
Cleary its not.
Supposed to get some rest,
But sadly i can't.

And,you are beautiful.

just call me Bari!