I've been drug free and the last time i had an alcoholic beverage was more than a year ago.You help me over come this obstacle,and you had literally been with me through thick and thin, my sleepless night during National service.It's going to be our first year anniversary soon,I'm sorry for putting you through loads of shit in the past,giving you plenty of problems but i like to thank you for giving me a second chance,being awesome and always supporting me. I LOVE YOU,FITRI.Never doubt that.Seriously,i'll do anything to make it right this time.Thank you princess.

A new year?A new start?Perhaps?
Great things did happen last year.Thanks for the memories.
They would remain in the past.No point for us to talk about it now.

A few more hours before my enlistment.
A few more hours too last use the internet.
A few more hours before my last cigarette.

Spent my day by cleaning my room and cooking for the family.
Nothing much to do anymore since there's no longer anyone to talk too.
Loads of things filling up in my mind,
Loads of questions to be ask.
Wish it be easier,
Wish it was over.

Things are not the same surely.
Fake smiles where ever i go.
Sense of humour lost dearly.
Lack of confidence surrounds me completely.
Never thought it be rather hard.
Im sorry to all my mates whom i had offended.
Sorry for not being able to show the affection to you guys like before.
Sorry for being an ass and force you guys to drink with me just because i need it.
Selfish ,i know.

Still wished it was easier,
Still wished the day before was what i expected.
Cleary its not.
Supposed to get some rest,
But sadly i can't.

And,you are beautiful.

You still linger in my mind.
Im sorry.

As i just had prepared my mindset for the SAF,
I just received a letter that i had hereby been changed to SCDF.
Fucking hell.I am mindfucked.I had always hate that name,people from there and now i be one of them.
God damn it!
Im utterly pissed off with the decision made.

Pond full of regrets.
You are all walls to me.
It might be easy for you to say,
but practice what you preach,someday.

Its funny how we got to know each other.It started somewhere in September 2008.
From mails to text messages to phone calls then to meet ups.
A year and 4months has past i assumed.
Some dates i remember from the time we spent.

21.02.09-The very first time i went out with you for a movie.Employee of the month i suppose the movie was.Forget to take my ipod from you after that night and had to meet you the day after.
28.02.09-Your Birthday Celebration.
Met a few times though i forget the dates.
Hiatus.
23.05.09-Dinner at zac's and movie later on.Night in the museum 2.
16.06.09-Met you at City Hall MRT station to pass you some stuffs.Last time i saw you.
Hiatus
05.09.09-Broke fast together
hiatus,but talked sometimes.
19.11.09-We started talking again.
24.11.09-We went out,the best time i ever had.
30.11.09-I forgot what we did for that day.
03.12.09-Had coffee with you,and things when the other way after this.
11.12.09-Last time i hold a conversation with you.
17.12.09-Last time we texted each other.

01.01.2010-Last time i texted you.
Im glad that you are doing fine and im happy for you.
Something i said or done may be the reason you ignored me.I hardly know.
Part of my life was great,thanks to you .
Take care,beautiful.Cause you are indeed.

just call me Bari!